When I started this process I never knew how much outside influences would affect me. Life in general seems to effect the way that I feel towards working out each day. I feel so weighed down by the issues in my life. Then a sadness sets in and I would rather wallow in what feels like the end of the world then to get up and exercise.
Today I had a huge fight with my sister. I feel bad for the things that were said but feel good for saying some things that needed to be said. She believes that I am jealous of her. For dating my ex boyfriend? Its crazy. But maybe there is a subconscious jealousy. Who knows.
I feel selfish for taking the time from the boys to work out. i can't always work out with them. And when Oliver decides he is going to nap, sometimes i am so exhausted I cant even imagine working out.
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