Lord help me.

Today I am trying to figure out how to start this journey. I seems so hard to make such drastic changes in my life. I look around me at all the healthy people who eat what they are supposed to and exercise daily, and wonder how they get motivated.

I sit hear with my cup of coffee (with fat free creamer and truvia sweetener) and wonder what simple changes I can make to the calorie intake that I start my day off with. I have at least 4 cups of coffee a day.

My wonderful cousin gave me some weights, a 21 day Hollywood trainer makeover book, a jump rope and an other Jillian Micheal DVD. I am excited to sit down and read the trainer book.

I know that following a healthy diet is key to success in weight loss but how do you make meals that your kids with eat? Carter hates pretty much everything and Oliver pretty much just hates my cooking.

My goal is to start this massive overhaul on Monday. Lord help me.

This is why....

Here we go...

So....here I am.
I need to lose about 15-20 pounds. I know. I know. Nobody can see what I am talking about.
Well, I see it. I am almost 140lbs. In this blog I plan to be painfully honest. I will post pics along the way. Starting with pics of why I am so unhappy with my body.
I do not own a scale.
I do not own any exercise equipment.
I do not have a gym membership.
I own two 2lbs hand weights and a Jillian Michaels 30 minute shred DVD.


I will be doing this in my home. In my neighborhood. With my kids. By myself.


I want to feel good about the way I look. I want more energy to play with my crazy boys. I want to fit in my clothes.


I really want to fit in all my clothes that are hanging in my closet collecting dust.
Along the way, I want people to kick me in the butt if I fall off the wagon.


I quit smoking cold turkey almost three years ago and have never smoked a cigarette since. I should be able to get toned and never look at myself in the mirror and say "gross" again.